CELINE ROCKS .

2006-10-01T19:00:00.000-07:00

x < c (:
x ^ c (:

(My house is like going through some kind of major renovation from the first level to the third level so I'm staying at my granny's till O levels are over )

Shirlyn woke me up from my sleep at 8 freaking am when she called my hp like NON STOP .It took me like a long 5 minutes to realize that Shirlyn was standing outside the house gate this morning when I peered through my room window from the third floor after she woke me up by her irritating calls . And it was raining . No , you can't totally blame me , because I just woke up . She was complaining like crap( she got drenched for 20 minutes) because it took me 5 minutes to realize it was her , and next 5 mintues to reach for the intercom and another 5 minutes for the maid to open the gate .And it took her another 5 minutes to walk in the drive way , uncovered . Like who the hell wakes up at 8 am at my granny's ? Absolutely no one . Except for the maids . And the house phone was a little screwy .

Btw I have so many boxes of GoodWoodPark Hotel's & Hyatt's mooncakes at home now . And like 75% of them are the soft types of mooncakes which are like so much nicer than those brown skin types . So that's fine . Mum added on to the 'collection' by purchasing another 2 boxes from Hyatt this afternoon . Gee . I bet like we won't be able to finish all of them and will only end up throwing them away like last year .

Anyway , my mum got me a new chihuahua & I named it JUICY! Spastic la but yeah I can't think of a better name ?It was from Pet Lovers , they have really cute dogs .It took her ages to agree on getting a new dog , for that matter of fact . Julian & Joseph have gone back to Hawaii and yeah , I have not been skyping with the evil twins because O levels are like in 4 weeks time ( exactly ) . It just sounds scary , doesn't it ? Like 4 weeks left to remember all the shit you have studied in 4 years . But Ju & Jo , if you both / one of you , is/are reading this , please take care & check for any overseas incoming gifts ! I have sent this parcel thingy over to Hawaii ! Surprise Surprise Surprise !

Had tuition with Nikki ! We talked about so much and how two face some people can get . And we gonna make great study partners if we like , uhm , stop talking so much and do more work! Heh.

And oooh , I told my mum that I misplaced the YSL case at kap last night and she lectured me for like 15 mins NON STOP because I've been losing things this year . The last most recent things I lost was the D&G keychain at the zoo & my pink razor at ps ( which was found and returned to Motorola after I reported lost) . So she made a bet that I'll like lose my wallet or something sooner or later . Then I was thinking , there's a possibilty in losing anything I bring out , except HEEEEELS !! Unless like , I take them out .. (Like for what ?) Maybe I will like lose my heels at Nine West when I'm trying out other heels . Yeah Right ... That was just a spastic understatement .

Had high tea at Raffles's Tiffin Room after tuition . So it was like late lunch / early dinner kinda thing . Ate like only a bit , thanks to the heavy mooncake breakfast I had .

2006-09-30T23:21:00.000-07:00

The whole day was dedicated to - studying at kap . And oh my son , the hwachong guy was there studying too . I bet he was like doing some integrated maths questions or something close to that . He's absolutely hot I swear . Whoo . Belly <3 Are you reading this ?! And yahhh , I misplaced my YSL case today . kajdfladkfjladkdjasl I feel sad .

It's like totally freaking me out like crapppp because like umm , some people have been reading my blog and I don't even know until I realized somehow .People start acting as some anonymous asking me about so & so . Probaly a private Xanga blog will be good .

No , it's not worth mentioning you anymore .

2006-09-29T23:20:00.000-07:00

I spent the whole day studying at kap .

Studied with Ray & Belly .

Bumped into Xavier,Samuel Lee and friends . So joined them at their table and they claimed that I actually disrupted them from studying and blahblah . Anyway , I just have to comment that ,Xavier has this very spastic indian friend who is pretty helpful and highly irritating .

So when they left , I joined ZELLY<3 at her table with her acsib classmates ( and yes , I saw Ben Tan too !) Met Bryan at kap in the evening for a gay period of time . He came down after tuition . And then , he is full of shit and more shit . So yeah , nothing much has changed , the same old him . Just that his hairstyle is sexier now and his usual calling of BITCHHHHHH turns to pisspot today. So , I was like studying , hopping from table to table . It was quite disruptive but I learnt pretty much things especially Emaths from ZELLY<3 . I love you Zelly <3 , it was really great catching up with you , and now , it doesn't seems like we have drifted so far apart ! Back on track , hope to see you next year in IB if I managed to get in ! <3 Princess Belly , I love you just as much <3 Mum picked me up at kap and I'm back home now !

2006-09-28T18:05:00.000-07:00

<3

Belly <3

Yours Truly .

He is the most spastic friend I ever got . ( Nicholas)

Zelly <3

The good old days .

Infatuations .

Belly & Zelly , Celly misses you both <3

2006-09-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

I figured that you've had enough
and I'm sure I've too .

Because I need more time
Just to make things right
Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
About all the things caught in my mind
Me and you what's going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

You just don't understand , do you ?

Coup De Foudre .

2006-09-27T16:12:00.000-07:00

I hate this . I hate this coming .
Yeah I suck so bad .

I'm sorry .
I couldn't have made things better .
I gave my best .

Nothing can ever make me feel worst than this .
I wished that things were better .

My blood running in me is turning cold.
I'm desprately trying to keep it warm,
To just keep it in me.

2006-09-26T16:32:00.000-07:00

I no longer long for the summer
And I no longer care about the snow
I just cant take this much longer

It was just a garden in the rain
Close to a little leafy lane
A touch of color beneath skies of grey

Wishes I wished for , Dreams that I've chased .
No nothing more than that .

2006-09-26T07:20:00.000-07:00

Though it's been a while now
I can still feel so much pain
Like a knife that cuts you the wound heals
but the scar, that scar remains

But now I hear you found somebody new
and that I never meant that much to you
To hear that tears me up inside
And to see you cuts me like a knife

2006-09-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

A cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind so
I'll let you listen to the saddest sound of railway tracks,
I'll let you into my sanctuary of freshly dead flowers.

I'll give you my destiny
I'll give you all of me
I want your symphony singing in all that I am

2006-09-24T18:01:00.000-07:00

Went shopping with Mum,Julian& Joseph in town ytd . Bought some Nike tops , Forever 21 shorts & this Pedder Red's heels .Had lunch at Taka's Crystal Jade which apparrently sucked .Went dress shopping at Paragon and decided only on two out of the 50 over pieces tried on.We spent a holy 4 hours there.Watched ' The Haunted Apartments' at the Grand Cathay. Then we snacked at Ben & Jerry's . That was like for dinner ytd .

Then there was this bouquet of black & red roses outside my house at 2 mother freaking am .Long storyyyyy . I actually fell asleep at 12mn and uh , a call woke me up and yeah .. Long story again . And yeah I slept at 6am this morning . And it totally slipped my mind that I'm supposed to meet Nicholas in the afternoon. So I slept till 2pm this afternoon . I got a record breaking of 102 missed calls & 14 sms-es . Then I realized that I've tution today with Nikki , I'm supposed to meet like some other people too . So my day was screwed and of course , I got screwed too .

So back to where I stopped ... yeah 2 pm .. I woke up .. And had lunch with Mum,Dad,Julian,Joseph,Cousins & Aunties & Uncles and Grandparents at GoodWood Park. The durian mooncake is the sex of sex . Every year it has been like this .

Umm , then went back to granny's place and we played pool & the kids swam . Julian & Joseph are leaving Singapore tomorrow's night for Hongkong because their mum is still over there for some international meeting crap. She was unable to leave and all la . So we gonna have some farewell dinner at Four Season's 190 tomorrow evening for Ju & Jo .

There's still a part of me that can't bear to let you go .

2006-09-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

Something horrid happened .
One sentence & you're down .
One lover & you're damned .
One heartbreak & you're gone .

You see it's not always right to tell someone you love them
You have to think twice before you say those three words
Cause they can mean the world for that someone
If you don't mean it then don't even bother to tell those three words

I feel sad . I feel like crap . It happened before .But now , I can't even do anything to save you from this misery & despair . I wish I could help you. It hurts so much to see you , my best of friend , getting hurt so bad because of a D-I-C-K .

It's definitely been awhile . Now this whole issue has set me thinking about all the good & bad stuff that has happened ..

This is where I say I've had enough
And no one should ever feel
The way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
A trophy display of bruises
And I don't believe
That I'm getting any better.

I never wanted it to hurt more then it should
I never had time to close my eyes
and forget about this mess
I'm tired to fix this tragic lust up in the sense
but how can I forget if I have the time
and everything is good

2006-09-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

OMGZXZXZ I'M SO HAPPY NOWW :D

Met Nich teo & Farhan in the afternoon . Accompanied them to get their hair cut . Farhan had this sexy short hair & Nich has this semi moehawk . Yeahhh so they took like years to get their hair cut ... Okayyyyy . Then Farhan left . Nich & I went over to the cine's hk cafe . It was like the sexxxxxx (: hohohoho . Yeah the ice milk tea , omg the best .

Then BELLY came :DD She was carrying huge loads of stuff and her big bag of Mrs Fields (: heehee. I miss my princess <3 Nich thinks I'm so spastic and retarded but yeah , he's no better (: But he's cooooool la . Because he carried my bag and accompanied me shopping today . whoo ?

Nich's friend came . So Belly & I went over Taka and then Paragon . Then took a cab down to Holland V to meeeet Ivan . Had dinner at this Raku Jap restraunt with them . It was nice , especially the Choya's Greeeen Tea . Damnnnn goooood .

Blasted pretty much on shopppping today . Cool tops with cool slogans from Cine , True Religion Jeans from Tangs !! hoho a holy $493 , & Dkny's delicious . Sexy stuff I swear. And the so fabulous , Nine West Heels . I feel some loveeee <3

Pictures with Bellly up soooon <3

& Nich !! Don't be emo anymore ! Be happy (: She'll be your sexiest girl alive soon :D

2006-09-22T10:17:00.000-07:00

I don't quite get why am I not sastified .
I'm mulling over stuff . I get disappointed so easily .

So he was asking me , So what if prelims are over ? Dont you have to like study your ass off all over again for O levels ?

True .

I'm so afraid of this & that , afraid that I'll never make it and get send overseas .I feel so jaded and so full of worries . Mind overwhelmed with those crazy-insane-out-of-this-world emo thoughts & ideas . Replaying those emo songs on my ipod over and over again .What can save me from this ? Probaly the less hurtful reality .

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Maybe I should be miles apart for me to understand me .

2006-09-21T21:12:00.000-07:00

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you

You are my sin , my biggest sin .

2006-09-21T21:00:00.000-07:00

Had brunch at Cafe Cartel with Ju & Jo after Chem & Lit Papers. Bought Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey , Super Fudge & Cookie Dough on the way back home ! Ben & Jerry is love <3

My mum mixed up the Salsa Dance Night dates at Sentosa . So there weren't any dance thingy tonight going on in Sentosa. So we headed town for dinner at Paragon's Sushi Tei . Bought mooncakes :D Small ones !! Bought 2 small snowskin mooncakes for Mrs B ! HIGH CALORIES IN MOONCAKES - My mum warned me . OMGZXZX . So I bought smaller ones instead of those big chunky ones with yolk!

Check out Vera's Princess ! Nice !

James is soooo sexyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy right ?!

2006-09-20T18:17:00.000-07:00

Julian/Julie & his evil twin , Joseph/Josephine are going back to Hawaii in exactly 10 days ):We gonna have a farewell dinner this saturday at The Line .

Friday = End of Prelims ! = Shopping Time with Nikki! & maybe Ju and Jo !

To-Do-List

LOVE BELLY MORE !
MAKE AN OVERSEAS CALL TO HANNAH !
Nich's bdae party at coccolatte on oct 13 !
Andrew's bdae party in oct !
Make plans for the house party !
Study with smartie + BELLY .
Skype/Webcam with Ju&Jo when they're back in Hawaii .
Stock up my earring collections to like 100 pairs ! ( 15 more pairs to go)
Paint my room with some words + Joel gonna paint pictures on my room wall .
Get the Kate Spade's Metal Pencil case this weekend .

BUY CHIHUAHUA !!!!!

Ok that's all , sweeties <33

/Edit.

My Princess Belly woke me up from my deeeep sleeeeeeeep with her phone call at 5pm! HAHAHA . She is soooooooo fucking spastic & HIGH I swear >

Belly ( SCREAMS LOUDLY) : CELINE CHUAAA !! HELLO !!
Celine ( SHOCKED) : OMG YES DEAR ?
Belly : HAHAHHAHA IM SO HIGH ! I JUST DRANK COFFEE!!
Celine : You just woke me up you know -_-
Belly : HAHAH SORRRY LA !! HEEHEE.
Celine : So what can I do for you , Bellllly ? haha .
Belly : TEST ME CHEMSTRY LEHH !!I'VE CHEM PAPER 2 TMRW!
Celine : Orhhh , okayyyy , I've Lit paper 2 & Chem paper 1 tmrw .
Belly : YAYYY OK , I'M SORRY TO WAKE MY CELINE UP ! HEEHEE.
Celine : You are soo fucking gay & HIGH , Belly . HAHAHA.
Belly : I drank coffee what !!
Celine : Let's go Ben & Jerry's sooooon okayyy!
Bellly : OKOKOKOK AND GET TERYLENE IN OUR BODY !!
Celine : -_- HAHAHA YOU ARE SO GAYYY BITCH .
( We got like sooo sidetracked I swear , HAHAHA)

You know you love me , Belly <3 because I'm soooo coool :D
Aiyuh , okayy la , I love you too , Princess <33 Hahahah but not more than smartie (: Kidding , I love you as much lurhhhh although you woke me up from my sleeeppppp <33 <33

2006-09-19T22:03:00.000-07:00

I see a lily on thy brow .
With anguish moist and fever dew ;
And on thy cheeks a fading rose
Fast withereth too.

2006-09-18T16:25:00.000-07:00

We were standing all alone
You were leaning in to speak to me
Sweet temptation rush all over me
And I think about it all the time
Passion desire so mother fucking intense that
I can't take it anymore because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees .

Tell me it's madness
I barely know you yo .

2006-09-17T17:19:00.000-07:00

O, what can ail thee , knight at arms .
So haggard and woe begone .
The squirrel's granary is full
And the harvest's done .

And when you look into my eyes
I felt a sudden sense of urgency
Fascination casts a spell and
you became more than just a mystery
And I think about you all the time
Is this fate is it my destiny
That I think about you all the time

my secret crush * <3

2006-09-16T10:34:00.000-07:00

Don't go making all these promises
You know you cannot keep
There's a time to play a king and a time to be a thief
'Cause if you're making all these
Promises you know you cannot keep
You know time will be the thief and
Your fallen king end up alone .

It doesn't work this way anymore .

2006-09-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

Let's keep this short & sweet .
-History Prelims was uber fucked up .

Had quiche for lunch with mom at starbucks . Bought lots of sushi back for Juliannnnnn . And I ate this soyabean ice cream , it was sooo nice . But that didn't like make me feel better / happier .

Julian has a new name , Julie . I like the name Julie & I like calling him Julie even though he hates it , but the catch is , I like it & that is all that matters right ? Julie .

Joseph has a new name too - Josephine. I like doing this when I'm sad . Like how I like calling Marvin as Mary,my dad, Alex as Alice and my uncle , William as Winnie & of course not forgetting , bestfriend Joel as Joey . I just like giving people wierd names when I'm saddd . Yaaaa I'm so wierd .

I painted Julie's nails ten different colours after dinner , it's so sexy & nice now .

2006-09-14T15:49:00.000-07:00

We've just finished watching white chicks on hbo! (: Okayy , it's like my third time watching it but I still find it soooo spastic & funnnnnny . hoho . Ju just painted my nails light blue and it's sooooo uglyyyy ): So I painted his nails redddddd ! Red is so sexy that makes him look so gay (:

He made this lychee martini with redbull this morning with my dad's martini . And he is making the drink into a jelly pop nowww ! Sooo cooool . Maybe we can make this at the house party (: & everyone will love it ( i think )

I love you sexy bom bom :D <3

2006-09-13T13:39:00.000-07:00

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through

The desire is so intense to
Cut those wrists of yours with a razor , let the veins show &
Call upon the name of Eros , the greek god of love .

You get me now ?

2006-09-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

Hear these ladies scream - Woe Betide !

Grow up , little boy .

2006-09-10T21:06:00.000-07:00

il faisait beau, mais je ne peux pas commettre.
J'ai besoin de temps .

Why are there crossroads in life ?

Anyway had lunch with mum & dad at the club . Ju & Jo bought shitloads of dvds & cds from hmv this afternoon . But I had tuition so I didn't like join them . Nikki skipped tuition today ): So I was so sad , and alone .. Ok not really .. Cynric was talking to me through out and he showed me this uber funny video of his friend Paul who just walked out of the class banging the door when the teacher was like lecturing him . Freaking funny that I watched it twice -_- Ok so tuition was freaking bloody boring without nikki . I miss you NIKKI VERA ! <3 Then we had dinner at granny's .

I miss nicholas teo like so much ! Because we used to talk like everyday then prelims revision came and like .. we don't talk anymore ): and he has his slackish town lifestyle while I like mugged everyday ): I miss hanging out with the 4 gay boys . Ok that was gay . Movies & Cafe Cartel after my blooody prelims !

Belly , I miss you too , so stfu . Hahahahah kidding you know I love you <3 & I think I shall just freaking leave my geog textbook over your place .. Im too lazy to go collect it, heehee. Ok & before i forget , i love you juliannnnnnn -_-

I can't remember why we fell apart,
from something that was so meant to be.
Forever was the promise in our hearts.
Now more and more I wonder where you are.

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?

2006-09-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hooooooo . I ate like the fucking most today . I had full breakfast with Julian & Joseph , mum was supposed to come along but she wants to eat like dimsum with granny but Ju & Jo wanted to go western . So we had breakfast at Four Season's 190 ( One-Ninety) . Then we went to this petshop which has like so many doggies & puppies . They were so gorgeous and cuteeeee . Joseph wanted to get this tea cup size puppy , it was a major cutieee <3 I love . Oh and like maybe next weeek , we gonna get a dog (seriously) & like name it , JUICY . It's really spastic , and so dog owners , if you think there are better names to name a dog ( other than my spastic idea of naming it- JUICY) , please tag me & tell me ! (:

Mmm on the way back to granny's , we bought granny's favourite - crystal dumplings from crystal jade ! And granny was so happppy (: Took a shower again and changed . Julian & Joseph walked me to holland v 's coffee club . Had lunch there with Mrs B , it was a really belated teachers day lunch treat . Hahaha , Mrs B was sooooo sweeeeet I swear, she baked coookies and gave some to me . It was damn buttery but delicious <3

Met *I.... at Haagen Daz and we had this chocolate fondue thingy which was like so damn good and nice . There were ice cream,cookies,biscuits & fruits for you to dip it in the choc fondue . But he hasn't like ate a proper meal since morning , so we went over to this japanese korean bbq-yourself restaurant for a proper meal . It was something like Seoul Garden but it's much more nicer than Seoul but it's fucking expensive . Anyway so we ate that for dinner and he ordered this oxtail soup which tasted like crap -_- But the steak was damn goood .

& so.. I was like eating the whole day today ....

Mum picked me up from holland v . She brought Julian , Joseph & I to lido's DOME restaurant .They had dinner there and like I went walking around Isetan alone cos I already like ate . Bought this super nice glitter eyeliner from m.a.c , and this burberry's keychain to replace the D&G one which I lost at the zoooooo. Julian paid for that , gee . Then we went over to Avana to check out the new gowns !They were so fucking nice ok . And I had to buy a new gown for mum's friend's son wedding at fullerton in 2 weeks time so she bought me the vera wang's gown although it was a little costly , like $600+ ... I love mum & JULIANNNNN

Yes Julian is like beside me , and he wants me to blog that he is very cool & sexy & hot & everything & i love him because he bought me the burberry keychain . He is the sex , the sex bomb .. Ok whatever . We all know you are hot , Ju. Stop being so fucking ego . HAHAHAHA.

CELINE IS FUCKING GAY .

2006-09-08T21:04:00.000-07:00

Helllooooooooo I just came back from dinner with mum,dad,Julian&Joseph at some korean restaurant at taka . It was damn the sex ok :D Korean cuisine is love ! Ok so anyway , went swimming with dad at the club . Dropped by the Barclay's Singapore Open at Sentosa Golf club with Julian,Joseph & dad and I saw Mardan Mamat & Adam Scotts!! (: Ju ,Jo and dad got bored so we left shortly after ): So I missed out Adam Scotts's game ):

& so anyway , we went over to taka's cold storage to get like tidbits and shit because Julian & Jospeh wiped EVERYTHING OUT the past few days . So we went on some crazy grocery tidbits shopping ! We bought 3 tubs of Ben&Jerry's Chunky Monkey , 4 tubs of Ben&Jerry's cookie dough & 2 tubs of pure chocolate . Ok that's only for the ice cream part . We threw in like 4 big boxes of cereals and like 5 bottles of the sparkling juice & many apples & tangerines . Oh yes , I FREAKING LOVE GRAPES SPARKLING JUICE ! HAHA . Ok so yah anw, dad bought us like a box of Harrods Chocolates each :DDD It was the second sexy thing of the day <33 And we bought MOONCAKES :DDDDDD DAMN NICE OK !HEEEEHEE .

I received a call from Ailin when I was at taka . She was so spastic & cute cos she was like , omg celine , I missed out on so many juicy gossips lahh! Then my phone was surviving on low batt so she said she will call me tonight or something .Hahahahaha

& OH OH , Im gonna get the white V3X . ITS LIKE DAMN GORGEOUS LAAA :D So Im gonna change my phone number I think . Hahaha .

I can't go over Belly's house to study tmrw ): Because I have commited myself to 3 things . Ju,Jo & mum in the morning , Lit with Mrs B in the afternoon and family steamboat over granny's in the evening and night . Im sorry Belly but I'll miss you alrights , love <3

oh my lovely .

2006-09-07T17:32:00.000-07:00

/ EDITED / UPDATED .

I went back to school for biology remedial in the morning . Rushed back home & changed. Because I'm supposed to like go to the Singapore Zoo with Ju&Jo. They were dying to do so as they went over Hawaii since they were like pri 1 i think , so they were quite zoo deprived as Hawaii doesn't have like zoos with tigers and snakes . Hawaii only has petshops . So yes , to be a good host and shit like this , I'm obliged to go with them . And the outcome was - I fucking had blisters on my feet and I fucking lost my D&G keychain cos i hung it on my bag and it went loose or something. Ju wanted to get me a new one but it's not like found in s'pore , it was a gift from aussie . Sod goddamn it . Then the driver sent us to Holland V after the zoo trip and we had lunch at Nydc . & yes because of my blisters , I couldn't like go running with Derek in the evening , which we planned to do so two days back . Things always happen unexpectedly .

Shah's a nice person to talk to on the phone because he's just so spastic and gay & he never hides anything on the phone conver ( at least I dont think so). Belly's fucking ego because she claims that she makes me feel excited -_- but i still <3 her laaa. So Nich, Shah, Ju, Jo & alot more other people are out there shopping in town and I'm at home trying to get the geography shit all into my brains and trying so fucking hard to understand the bloody genetics engineering in bio . And tonight , like so many people I know are going for Roice's party at Momo and Momo's a nice club and it's like my favourite . & I'm not freaking going because Im supposed to abstain from clubbing , till at least prelims are over . Determination & Discipline , that's what people tell me & shit . But even Ju & Jo are going . Omg and they're going to tell me what a hell of a fun time they had when they get back. EVILLL PEOPLE .

Ok I shall just like study tonight and talk to the man on msn if i'm really bored (: & have dinner with Ju,Jo & mum at Crystal Jade before mum sends them to Momo.

THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY , YOU MIGHT BE READING THIS :D YES , IT STAYS .

2006-09-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

So this was what happened last night till today .

1. Had Movie Marathon with Ju & Jo - Watched POC , Chicken Little & DaVinci .
2. They wiped out my ben&jerry's , royce chocolates , sparkling juice & mochimochi.
3.They ordered macs at 3am - breakfast menu .
4.Ju went out to get cheese roti prata at 4am but Jo & I alrd fell asleep .
5.Ju played dota on his mac till 10am , he had jet lag .
6.We went SICC's gym at 11am & I ran like 3km ! .
7.We had porridge & dimsum for brunch at YumCha.
8.Ju&Jo went town & I went back to my granny's .
9.I baked muffins today but it suck real bad .
10.Ju & Jo bought meritus mandrain's chatterbox chicken rice back for me :D
11.We gonna watch tokyo drift 1&2 tonight .
12.Ju&Jo gonna swim tonight at my granny's .
13. I have freaking biology class at 9am tmrw .
14.Oh Ju & Jo bought me this super spastic tee which says - I AM SO GAY .
15. I'm checking out Pois Boutique at Paragon for new gowns this weekend with mum,Ju&Jo.

2006-09-05T20:57:00.000-07:00

I had geography remedial in the morning . My very cool mum picked me up from school after geog remedial and we went shopping in town . Julian & Joseph joined us . They are my mum's bestfriend's sons . I have not seen them since pri school , they just came back from hawaii a few days back .They used to be irritating assholes who love stealing my pens and draw all over my white school shoes !! ):But now , all tanned & fucking hot . Haha. But their mum has yet to arrive , only arriving like next week . So they are putting up at our place ! Hahaha . What a sweet eye-candying week I'm gonna have :D

Ok so anyway the four of us went shopping in town . Had lunch at the revolving restraunt at meritus mandrain. Went taka after that . Julian & Joseph bought me , Dior's Pure Poison as a gift . Belly ! I have the same perfume as you noww ! Mameemooheehee. So I got them each a belt from A|X . It's pretty nice & cool as a gift . Bought a top from Guess and 3 tops from Forever21 . I'm a huge fan of Forever21 , lol . And a new pair of jeans from Zara. Went over Heeren ! :D Julian,Joseph & I bought similar Ed Hardy's jacket each. It was a gift from mum to the three of us (: There weren't any new nice tops I could find at Queen's so ended up getting a casing from there . Chilled out at Billy Bomber's till late afternoon. Walked down to Paragon and mum did her shopping while Julian & Joseph accompanied me to look for the chocolate fondue there (: Had dinner at Paragon's Crystal Jade Palace. It was so damn grand . Then we got home .

So Im home now with Julian & Joseph and mum wants me to treat them really nice as like giving them my 2 tubs of ben&jerry's ice cream and my favourite Mochi Mochi ): And put my Pyagu in the Guestrooom ): And the ownage of all things - the XBOX 360 to be in the Guestroom ):

Mum says we gonna stay over granny's place which's nearer to town from tomorrow onwards so the boys can reach town in less than 10mins . So I have to move my Pyagu and XBOX360 over granny's for them . YEAHH COURTESY , FOLKS .

Ok bye , I've to go like start packing my books , my notes , my pyagu , my ben&jerry's, my mochimochi & my xbox .

2006-09-04T21:08:00.000-07:00

I thought that Geog extra lesson today was at 10am ! And my driver drove me to school so I reached schoool at like 930am which I thought was so earlyyy then I realized everyone has gone up for lessons , and it actually started at like 9am ? So I was half an hour late .

Ok so anyway , cabbed down Belly's place to studyyy :D My driver couldn't pick me as he had to make a turn back granny's place to send my little cousins to some kids pool party at 11am. Bellly was sooo cute I swearrrrrrr . Pigged out at her place with all her organic food ,cereals,hazelnut milk & fruits . Studied Geography and Geography only ! Yes for like 5 hours ? HAHA . And I ate this durian cake which was like super gooooood , on par with like Goodwood Park's one ! And I ate this small tub of Haagen-Dazs Cookie & Cream icecreamm ! It was soooo niceeee <3

Had dinner at Hyatt's Mezza9 with mum,dad & aunt.Went to get some m.a.c stuff from CK Tang and yeahhh home ..

& .. Acs barker has like finished their prelims ? Omg I've my prelims like next weeek ? ALIBABABABABA.
stopbeingsotwofacebitch.

2006-09-03T17:04:00.000-07:00

SAMSAM <3 KRUNNK !

BELLY'S BIRTHDAYY ICE CREAM !

MAMEEEMOOOOOOO . I LOVE YOU BELLY BUTTON <3

HEHEHE , NICOLETTE IS SO COOL BECAUSE WE ____ THE SAME PERSON & SHE HAS COOL THINGS & SHE'S GOING SAJC , AND SHE LIVES NEAR ME (: HEHHE

2006-09-02T18:42:00.000-07:00

I couldn't let you see my crying eyes
but I wanted so bad to run to you
I can't understand, it happened so fast
Six months have passed
Now suddenly you’ve gotten over me

It hurts when I thought I had gotten over you
It hurts when together forever won't come true
It hurts when one broken heart is how it ends
Now I can pretend that losing you didn't mean a thing
And I can deny that this whole thing's not happening

2006-09-01T23:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTABELLY , MY PRINCESS BELLY <3

Reached town at like 11am with my aunt & cousins . We had brunch at Paragon's CrystalJade and it was like 400 plus bucks.Lol, pretty a rip off , 8 bucks for a glass of mango juice. Met Joel,Ayl,Josh,belly to watch FrostBiten at the GrandCathay, yeah the super ultra mega big one ! Actually we were supposed to watch The Devil Wears Prada at cineleisure but yours truly forgotten to tell them that I did not book the tickets online the night before and when we wanted to get the tickets, it was all sold out . Geez , I just unwillingly screwed the movie plans at cine up .

But The Grand Cathay was just as good , or in fact better . Hoho . Treated Belly to Ben&Jerry's Ice Cream!And my relighting candle didn't like work out , and Joel was soo nice , he was like , its the thought that counts (: Haha . Belly's happy! I'm glad that I gave her a surprise but it was like half leaked out , but it's okayyyy!! She still loves me <33 Heehee.Then we went over Plaza Sing to take neoprints , been like so long since we took neos and Joel was the only guy who joined us in taking neos,lol. Joel , I love your PYAGU !! :D:D

Then I rushed down harbourfront and had to book this bloody mercedes cab to get to sentosa . The queue for the shuttle was like so bloody long and all of the normal cablines are so freaking busy and kept putting me on hold and I WAS LATEEEEE TO MEET THAT IDIOT.So anyway , reached krunk ! Saw Matthew & Nick Scorp there early helping out at the counter for gueslists/VIPS. By the time I reached , the queue was like sooo longggggg but matthew got me in without queueing to help him peel the sticker tabs off and all (: Krunk was nice . AND SOMETHING WAS EVEN BETTER >>

I SAW W* AND HE SMILED TO ME AND LIKE , AT FIRST I DIDN'T KNOW WHO HE WAS AND THEN LATER HE TOLD ME HE WAS W* AND THEN I OH MY CHRIST , COULDN'T REMEMBER WHO HE WAS , AND HE WAS LIKE , WE TALKED AT MOMO AND HE WAS H*'S FRIEND AND ALL.THEN I WAS LIKE OHOHOHOHOH FOR SO DAMN LONG . IT WAS SOO BLOODY EMBARRASSING ): BUT HEHE HE SMILED AT ME AND HE'S LIKE OMFG SO CUTE AND HE HAS THIS DAMN NICE BOD . LOL .& YES HE TOTALLY SWEPT ME OFF MY FEET . HAHAHA. REALLLY BAD BUT .. HEEHEE <3 HE KINDA LOOOK LIKE SOMEONE THO.HAHA.

And yes! I saw AILINKEA,SAMSAM,RAVINDER&MARYANNE!! :D HEEEHEE. I was so happpy and we took pictures . I'll upload sooooon when I get the pictures! Oh and I bought this vintage necklace from Steffi's store (: It was reallllly nice(: and I miss you so much Steffi , it was great seeing you!!heehee.Jane&Joyce were there too ++ Andrew !! So many people that I missed were there! It was great catching up!<333 Mum&Dad picked me up at Sentosa around 11pm after I settled all the accounts with Matthew. I have like fucking so many blisters on my feet now ): I thought wedges were better than like high heeels but fuck no , they werent . Just as bad man .

I saw chloeeee with darieeeee , how cutieeeeeee (:

2006-08-31T23:53:00.000-07:00

Besides Hannah K , there's this other person who mean so much to me (: And she's no other than my princess/bestfriendforlife/ , Christabelly Peh <3

I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCHIE , BELLY :D
I LOVE ALL OF YOUR SELF OBSESSIONS PICTURES :D
I LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF THE WORLDDD !!<3HEEHEE .
I LOVE ALL YOUR FATS , BELLY , DONT BE SAD ANYMORE :D
I LOVE EVERYTHING OF YOU :D
HAPPPPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAYYYY PPRINCESS BELLY FELLY <3

SEE YOU TOMORROW , MY ROYAL HIGHNESS .

2006-08-30T20:32:00.000-07:00

I MISSSS YOU , HANNAH KOH EN MEI ):

DEAR HANNAH , IF YOU ARE READING THIS ,CHECK YOUR EMAIL ALRIGHTY (: I SENT YOU AN EMAIL USING MY GMAIL ACCT , HEEHEE I LOVE YOUU DEAR <3 ITS ONLY THE 3RD DAY YOU ARE OVER IN STATES & IM MISSING YOU SO MUCH ): BUT HEH ,A FEW MORE MONTHS YOU GONNA BE BACK ! I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT EVEN IF YOU ARE ONLY COMING BACK FOR SIX DAYS ): , HEEHEE LOVE YOU :D

CHRISTABELLE PEH TURNS SIXTEEN THIS FRIDAY , 1ST SEPT , WHOOHOOO .

2006-08-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

Dont be a motha fucker , fuckface .

2006-08-25T16:56:00.000-07:00

Take this razor and cut your palms .
For I'll do the same until a river of crimson begins to flow.
Now , drip your ruby red over the casket ,
A funeral for my once loved youth .

In this cliche tragedy ,
A Bonnie & Clyde kind of romance ,
My secret is fatally gorgeous -
I'll die for you .

But not anymore , it doesn't make much sense , you see .

2006-08-13T03:46:00.000-07:00

byebye for this shortwhile.

2006-08-11T20:46:00.000-07:00

So my two days National Day Holiday were spent like this...

Wednesday

Went over Ivan's with Christabelle to studyyy. Yes , for once , studying session was productive.Completed a few chapters of Biology in that few hours , ah huh yeah ! We had beef fried rice for lunchhhhhh. It was damnnn fantastic & goood . Aylwin came around late afternooon but he didnt study . Christabelle continued studying after she woke up from her long nap , so Ayl,Ivan & I played soccer at his garden. And the soccer ball landed up on the other roof balcony because I kicked it tooo high.Hehe , I'm sorry , Ivan ! Haha . Aylwin left around late evening for dinner with his parents. So Ivan,Christabelle & I walked over to the Secret Recipe near Mt Sinai for dinnnner (: It was like a good dinner . We went over the playground nearby , and played around with the swing . And the 20 minutes swinging experience I had was a classic , I swear . Imagine - Hahaaa . Walked back Ivan's place , and mummy came to pick me up. It was a long , tiring but fun dayyy :D

haha , someone's wallpaper .

Aylwinnnnnnnnn.

Thursday

I slept at 10pm on Wednesday night . Woke up at 7am on Thursday morning and baked pancakes. Went back to sleep at 8 am after baking then Jerrold called me at 2+pm , and asked if we were still going to meet to study . & I didnt know like there were sooo many people like 5 ? on the conference , and I was like , oh its 11am already ? It was soooo bloody embarassing when derek & jon ong were like , it's like 245pm , Celine . So decided to meet Jerrold and Derek at Macs to study at 4pm . They were both late , as usual . So we studied till 6+ and they wanted to playyyyyy . So accompanied them to wherever they went . Cabbed back home with Derek , reached home around 10pm . And that's Thursday .

Today's Highlight was the release of the GCE O Levels MT Results . My results ? Haha , it was so bad , but it was expected that I got such results . Called mummy and told her , and she was like , chuckling about it because she expected my kind of result . Hoho . So I have to bloody retake the chinese paper end of this year in Nov again . Fell asleep on my bed while watching 'In Her Shoes' , woke up at 5pm . Got ready & aunty Joey picked me up , and we went town for dinner at Hyatt . Dicker & Jiahao were over at cine , but I didn't go over to look for them as I left straight after dinner .

Bye Bye . Time to start studying for Prelims in Sept .

2006-08-08T23:20:00.000-07:00

Yeahhhh I'm back from town with my aunt. Went for the nose bleeding checkup then had dinner at Meritus Mandrain's Chatterbox instead of Marche.Chatterbox's chicken rice was super good tho it costs like 30 bucks a set . Hahaha , I swear that their chicken rice is better than BoonTongKee's one .

Saw Jon Chua at cine , and then saw him & timchow and friends at heeren again.Hahaha shoppingggg today was like the best of the best this year ..Bought 2 tops & a pair of jeans from Queen's Couture , Aunty Joey bought like 2 pairs of jeans and we were given a free limited edition Queen's tinbox because we spent over 300 bucks . Then we went over Takashimaya , it was crazy shoppingggggggg. Bought the YSL babydoll's perfume,Shu's cosmetics,Dior's lipgloss,Harrods chocolates,Guess Bag & Bracelet.Walked over Wisma's Forever 21 . Got 5 tops & 2 shorts from Forever 21.Went over Paragon to collect Aunty Joey's gown and she got us a pair of BCBG heels each . Like as if it was the last time shopping in my whole life, haha. BUT I'M LIKE REALLY HAPPPPPY TODAYYYYYYYYYYYY BECAUSE I HAVE BOUGHT LIKE ALMOST EVERYTHING . HAHAHA , YES CELINE IS HAPPY TODAY .

<3 HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYBODYYY .

2006-08-08T11:44:00.000-07:00

My wireless connection was screwed up the past few days .. So I've been logging in & out from my MSN automatically . Yah ok , I know it's bloody irritating , but it's bloody pathetic over my side too . I couldn't even use firefox or safari to surf the net or blogggggggg .

But anyway , dad bought back 3 boxes of GODIVA chocolates last night !! It was AWESOMEEEEEEYY. & yah , I totally forget about my nose bleeding & finished one box of GODIVA last night while watching the teevee . Since I have figured that , one box for himself, one box for mum & one box for me , hehehe.

So I watched teevee shows till 12 plus last night . Then Nicholas teooooo called me and we were fantasizing about being millionaires or billionaires one day when we grow up. It was like the most spastic phone conversation I had recently. And we were calculating if we had assets of $100million , and we lived up to 70 years old , we can spent like $20k ++ every month . And if there were interests rate and all , in a year , we will get $15million on top of the $100million . which means , theorically , we can spent close to $30k every month . HAHAHA .

& nicholas's way of spending was > buy bungalows & car every week .
& my way of spending was > shop like forever every day . HAHAHA.

So our spasticness carried on till 2 am then i was too tired to carry on the spasm & went to sleeeeeep. Hahaha , and nicholas have to wake up early today since he's going back to st andrews to look for his super hot babe teacher. HAHAHA. & play soccer . And omg , I didnt know that st andrews have this boxing thing every national day celebration. Which I think , was something like , you get on to the arena and challenge the school boxers , who in other words - your friends/classmates & probaly get whooped in the ass. Ok that was just my gayness again.

Cant make it for today's class bbq , since the highness wants me to go gleneagles for a nose checkie up in the evening . But to make up for that , Joey & her are bringing me for dinner at marche and then shopping at taka and maybe watching , lady in the water ..

so the plan for the national day holidays are like .. tomorrow after the morning celebration , go over ivan's place with christabelle to study , aylwin's coming too! and on thursday .. I'm gonna study at holland v with alicia,jerr,derek and maybe jon ong & ailin ! Im baking pancakes for them!<3 and back to school on friday (:

Xanga is fun to use .

2006-08-06T22:58:00.000-07:00

Had Dimsum with the whole big family at Paragon.
Everyone woke up late so it was already like brunch ..

Had Chemistry tuition .
Cynric was telling me how good the acsi drama play was.
Yes sadly , I missed it .

Sha got me into a huge dilemma on certain stuff .
But of course , I still love her (: Sha's lovely :D
& the final decision is > Go tomorrow !

I'm super indecisive about next Tuesday's.
I'm probaly studying with Christabelle & Ivan on Wed
so I dont really feel like studying on Thursday but neither do
I wish to like go town or anything , ahhhh welll .

I think I should stay at home and start watching dvds again .

Ok lastly , I'll promote two parties for two dudes .
Up to you hotties , on which party you all wanna go .
What I can say is , one has a good club & the other has good crowd.

8th August , Tuesday .

Freed @ ClubMoMo.
Drinking competition 9-11pm.
Look for Dicker : 98783540 for tickets!

Deja Vu @ Cheekys . ( mohd sultan)
Look for Cynric : cvnreec@hotmail.com for tickets!

If I knew how to tell you what's on my mind
Make you understand, then I'd always be there right by your side ;
A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises

2006-08-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

It's my cousin , Ryan's 6th birthday today ! :D
HAPPPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY RYAN KANG :D

Had a literature session with Mrs B at Holland V's CoffeeBean today.
Went through a few poems ; Anthem For Doomed Youth, KublaKhan & A Poison Tree .
But Demon Lover's still the best of them all .
Thank you , Mrs B .

Cabbed down after that to Ryan's Place for his 6th Birthday Party ,
which was 5 minutes away from Holland Village .
It was more of a Poolside Party for kids ,
and a BBQ Get-Together for the older ones , haha .
We specially ordered an Ice-cream cake from Ben&Jerry's
for his birthday since he has always wanted one since last year <3

& OH YES , I BAKED PANCAKES THIS MORNING :D
THE PANCAKES WERE TOTALLY AWESOME !

Staying over tonight ! (:

& I'm so sorry Cynric , I couldnt make it for your acsi drama concert tonight!
& Sorry DICKER! , I couldnt go fire-works watching with you guys just now!
I'll seee you soon , Dicker! And I'm seeing you tomorrow , Cyn! Haha

lotsa love , xoxo .

2006-08-04T23:41:00.000-07:00

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

I created a Xanga but I think it's just so gay ,
so I've decided not to use it .

Another short Friday has past , Chemistry test was alright .
Had dinner at Marriot with Mum & Ryan .
Dropped by Paragon to choose Ryan's birthday gift.
Ryan was awfully adorable during the car ride back,
he was praying that it wouldnt rain tomorrow ..
Or otherwise , it wouldn't be a kids' pool side party anymore .

Just how lovely he gets sometimes
And he's accepted into Acs Primary .

& yes before i forget what happened this afternoon ..
I was lying on my bed for like an hour or so ,
thinking about all that has happened since last year till now ..
And then , this private number called me .
Guess who was it ? Yes , the very spastic but lovely Ailin !
I'm glad that she's doing fine with her sweetest thing alive.
Happy 2 Months , Ailin & F*lin .

& Happy Birthday , Tanya Tan !

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.

Of all the things I believe in ,
I just want to get it over with tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry , counting the days that past me by .

2006-08-03T16:32:00.000-07:00

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around ;

School's fine . Biology Test was fine.

And I wonder why is she doing this .
If this is the way you want it ,then I shall wish fuckfaces like you ,all the fucking best .

Anyway on a happier note ,
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA CHIA <3 style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">

Tomorrow's Friday , then Saturday , then Sunday ..
And it hits Monday again , then Tuesday , so on & so forth ...
Ok ,I dont think I'm making a lot of sense here , but anyway yah ..
I'm trying to say that the cycle continues
and it's always the same old shit every week..

Arent you sick of this same old shit ?
I am . Very , in fact .

It's Ryan's 6th Birthday Party this Saturday ,
& he's gonna be in Primary 1 next year !
Isn't it just amazing , that six years have past just like this ?

This world is so full of joy , yet ironically , so full of hypocrisy .
Different kind of people , affects life differently .
It very much depends on how you look at things , I guess .

And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break

2006-08-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain,
every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'till I get over you..

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

If You Ever Knew That I Love You .

2006-08-01T12:18:00.000-07:00

My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Goodbye , take care .

2006-07-31T17:50:00.000-07:00

samsam <3
You know everyone around you like ailin & i will be here for you no matter what happens! so you gotta pull yourself together , set your heart & your aim at different things now , and piroritize your things well ok! Dont let whatever that has happened bring you down , you cant change things anymore .What has happened has happened , life's like this , samsam. If its fated , it will be back , if not , then just forget abt it , move along . Tho now i wont have much time to talk to you and literally be there for you , but you know that i stilllll care & i still love you yar ? anytime yeah (: , my dearest . Please take care , lotsa love , you are misssed! <3

Why leave them broken & torn apart inside ? Have you ever thought of how they felt ? No, because you idiots are just plain selfish ; self centered . All you want is , to get it over & done with . Have you ever thought of the good times you all shared ? You probaly had , but fuck , you decided to give it all up... ... right in your face,fuckfaces

2006-07-30T22:10:00.000-07:00

everything is shit & depressing .

but first things first , as promised ;
Deja Vu @ Cheekeys on 8th August .
contact cynriccccc on msn if you want tickets >
cvnreec@hotmail.com

nat , dont be sad , be happy , cheer up .

i know i have been pretty useless in consolling you ..i am not that goood with words and i know nuts on how to make you feel better & all ..& all i can always say are like, i'll always be here for you ..and i love you for who you are , my dearest love. these are just words , but i really really hope , no matter how bad things are ,and no matter how hard it is to carry on ,you have to pull yourself together <3 & move on . yeah i know it's not that easy to move on & stuff , but no matter what ,you have to be able to take the first step ; moving on ,and all your endeared beloved ones will always stand by you , love <3

& all unhappy earthlings , please be happpy alright. remember that you still have your friends around you . your friends still love you , and sadness spreads ): sigh . & i'm sorry cynric , i cant go for your acsi's drama concert , i have my cousin's bdae party to attend ): so see you nxt sunday ok!(: haha.

So I will save this last breath for words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying, but you're killing me.

2006-07-29T16:39:00.000-07:00

BIOLOGY REMEDIAL WAS SUPPOSED TO START AT 8AM
THEN IT WAS CHANGED TO 830AM ...
BUT SHE CAME IN ONLY AT 9AM ...
GAVE A SHORT TEST , GAVE HOMEWORK , CLASS DISMISSED .
GODAMMMN IT .

MY EARLY SATURDAY MORNING WHICH I COULD
HAVE SLEPT TILL 11AM OR 12 , WAS WASTED JUST LIKE THIS .

okkkkkkkk i just feel sorry for myself & my eye bags .

anyway i've finished watching the full set of forensic detective dvds !!im starting on some new dvds , some show similar to CSI (: hoho & i have finished planning the nov bangkok trip with mum last night, we drew up our own itinerary , it's really cool , haha .

the final decision : ~~to go for today's ndp preview~~ / not to go for today's ndp preview .
because it's raining , and some people cant make it...cos they have a dota match at 4 which gonna last till late evening..so yeah whatever .....decided to go for dinner with mum & dad later on at marriot and they are gonna talk abt ... migrating.. well done..whatever man ...

ah well on a happier note ,i like this super sexy turquoise black JUICY handbag which costs like 329 bucks .. but if you get it online .. it's only like approx 287 bucks after conversion from USD ..hehehe (: and the super lovely JUICY bracelet hannah has! haha SGD 222 , but it isnt available online.. MAYBE i'll get it next weeek cos mummmy just got me a bottle of gucci envy me , haha.

OMG OMG OMG OMG . A* KNOWS N* WHO'S FROM ST ANDREWS . HAAHAHAH . OMG , AND JIAHAO KNOWS HIM TOO . LOL . HAHAH. OMG . THIS WORLD IS SO BLOODY SMALL.

2006-07-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

went over christabelle's to study :D
but not too productive for me , cos i realized that
i have this major problem - Short Attention Span , that
i need to counter before i study with anyone again , hahahha .

so we ended up talking , HAHAHAHA .
& there goes my saturday tmrw , haw haw .

and christabelle has 2 extra ndp tickets for tmrw's !! lol.
but its gonna be uberly massive packed so... forget it ..

and yes two cool things abt her dad & my dad .
1. her dad is in charge of the parachuters for ndp.
2.my dad is in charge of the contigents for ndp .

whoo aint like her dad & my dad ,
two of the sexiest men on earth ?lol
ok that was a gay conclusion but yeah .. (:

had dinner over her place while waiting
for her dearest boyfriend , I* to come ...
and that took like more than an hour , haha .

and when he finally reached ..
i had to go cos mummy had reached christabelle's
place to pick me homeeeee by then (:

& i got a really nice surprise from robin when i got home.
it was like realllly nice of you ,
thank you so much (:

& i was never angry with you for anything , lol
you got me all wrong , my dearest robbbb .
you can always make up for missing my bdae after my O's (:
haha & yeah hopefully you can make it to go for the bangkok
trip with us too :D

>>>>>>> CHRISTY WAS BEING GAY .
qinzhen- all the attraction, the tension says:
im rlly v tempted to go queens couture and get pouches lah

qinzhen- all the attraction, the tension says:
celine, all ur fault lah

soulcandy (: says:
ahhaahha!

christ a belle says:
i changed my nick lah. FOR YOU

soulcandy (: says:
YEAH LA YEAH LA

Transfer of "06 fort minor - where'd you go.mp3" is complete.

christ a belle says:
OH YES!! THE SONG IS MINE!!!!!!

I SWEAR CHRISTABELLE IS JUST SO GAY (:
but christybelly has reallly nice
pancakes & tuna biscuits & coco krunch at her place .

and she gave me a talk on ,
what's true love , what's fate & what's marriage like .
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA .
i think she's too in love with I* (:
but whatever she had said , makes a lot a lot of sense (:

BESTFRIEND > take care & get well soon.
whatever stomach flu you have ....haha .
i pray that the king of hearts blows it all away <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">bloody 8am..
ok & its 1 min to 12mn . NIGHTS FOLKIES

2006-07-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

For you , I would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you but what hurts the most
was being so close & having so much to say
& watching you walk away..

Someone let you down again
so you turn to me
your convenient friend ,
feeling so depressed & emo ..
I've seen it a thousand times

how the fire we had before
are now just bitter ashes
left scattered on the floor

Do I cry, in the night?
do I long to hold you tight?
& do I wake, wanting you?
Yes I do
Do I recall, everyday,
how you took my breath away?
do I remember loving you?
Yes I do

Just when the wounds start healing you're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.

thanks for acting like you actually cared..
like you know , guns & knifes only go skin deep .

it's her that you have always wanted all this while ..

anw , thanks so much , chua & ang .

2006-07-26T20:23:00.000-07:00

this is for you , CHRISTABELLE <3

your amazingly beautiful , outside and inside .
totally angelic in the inside in fact ,
these 4 years , we have had our big & small quarrels ,
but we survived through ALL of them , im glad .

thank you for being such a forgiving friend ,
thank you for putting up with all my shit ,
thank you for being so patient with me .
thank you for changing me .
sorry for all the things that i've done to upset you .
sorry for being such an asshole at times .
sorry for neglecting you at times .
sorry for being so temperamental .

for all that you have wrote to me in your lovely letter ,
im touched to tears & i love you so much .

once again , thank you for everything these 4 years
and you know , it will be 4 years & counting on ..

and the other YOU .( hopefully you can decode the message)

j epou lopx xibu up tbz boznpsf ,
gps zpv , j xjmm hjwf zpv nz ifbsuj , cvu xjmm zpv ?
tjhu , zpv xpos , tjhu .
/forlorn&forsaken.i've fallen once again

2006-07-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

yeah yours truly have been studying .
so nothing much happen , except on how the
unfamiliar biology concepts greeted me .

so i shall just blog in a random orderly manner.

1.Mrs B gave me a disney light up pen & a card as a belated bdae gift(:
2.i have watched the davinci code FINALLY ( bloody gripping)
3.the ghost festival is here.
4.'the five people you meet in heaven' is an awesome book.
5.o level prelims are in 40 days , approximately .
6.i haven talked to hannah since last saturday .
7.i did not submit the dsa form for acsib.
8.the flight to bangkok on 17th is full , so im flying off on 18thnov.
9.house party ? haha, thats for end of the year.
10.my chemistry titration improved pretty much, haha.
11.i love you is 8 letters , and so is bullshit .HAHA.
12. i miss talking to james .
13.jon is pretty smart & lovely .
14.sharon shares the same bdae as jon ong .
15.i'm having a class chalet end of nov ,yay .
16.i have bio remedial this SATURDAY at bloody 8~~fucking~~am
17.i dreamt of chocolates ytd .
18.mum bought me another bag .
19.nicholas aka dicker is a very nice person .
20.i want to buy this bracelet from juicy couture.
21.i feel like eating durians again .

2006-07-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

let me blog abt nice earthlings today (:

mm , lets start with a sad old news first ...

my trainee emaths teacher , mr timothy wee , has left us ,
back to NIE for his training once again .
heh , i do admire mr wee pretty much somehow , haha .
& i will always remember him as ,
the-teacher-who-never-fails-to-smile.
he's just a great teacher whom i looked up to , hah .
and he's one of the coolest teachers i have come across ( apart from Mrs B) .

and if i dont blog abt dicker aka nicholas teo .
i'll be deem as the biggest asshole on this planet , haha .
yeah nicholas has been a great great listener
and he never fails to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling emo , lol .
thanks for everything , dicker :D

& not forgetting ... HANNAH KOH <3
hannah's someone you can count on , always.
she's really lovely & nice , someone who's always there for me.
im so glad that i knew her (: so glad , that she's one of my close girlfriends.
happy belated 2 months lovely .

and oh yeah , nich ang , jon chua & jerrold.
hahaa , the 3 jesters/jokers , whatever you call them..
they have been great entertainers on phone conferences
tho they can be highly annoying at times..
but they are great people to talk to and make fun of (:
jon chua is the one who's full of shit . hah .
& nich ang is the one who's the best listener ! (: haa.

and of course , ailin & samsam <3
ailin & samsam are like really nice& spastic .
and its because they are spastic thats why they are so adorable.
HAHAH they have always been there listening to my
endless sorrows and are always there for me when im depressed.
and im really glad that i have ailin & sam :D
happy belated 3 months lovely .
& ailin , dont be sad over you-know-who .
i love you,samsam loves you , all your friends love you(:
cheer up <3

nat lim . the spastic short little cute one .
hahaha , she's another lil twit who's forever so spastic . lol .
we dont hang out & talk as much anymore ,
but there's still that kinda link we have btwn us ?
which its good :D i love you , natnat .
i'll always be here to listen to your rants yo ?

and my 4 years bestfriend , christabelle peh qinzhen.
words aint enough to describe her angelic being , haha .
this 4 years , she has always stood by me thru the good & bad times.
we have shared so much joy & tears together , heh .
she's truly someone whom i can never afford to lose , haha.
i love you so much , qinzhennny <3

lastly , jon ong eng leong aka jonny pooper the man.
haha i remember your full name yo, haha. ( be happy)
thanks for everything & yeah i'll be happy
since you told me- sadness spreads. haha.

that's all for today . catch up soon , folks . on hiatus
oh my love , im gonna miss you .

2006-07-22T23:54:00.000-07:00

it's a saturday & i stayed at home .
wonderful .

i wished my bed wasnt so comfy .
so i wldnt sleeep like almost everytime im at home.
that was just gay , but yeah , HAHAHA.

i still remember those days back in april this year
when i'm supposed to study for mid years at
holland v starbucks with isaac,sophia,jon ong,nat..
but we all ended up talking & fooling around ..
making plans for our holidays ... HAHAHA .

i thank god that i actually have that one week sept holidays
before the ~~goddamn~~ prelims , haaaa .

but still , time to cut down on ,
1. msn chattings
2. late night phone conferences
3. going out

bye folks .

2006-07-21T21:48:00.000-07:00

i'm shocked , i'm feeling down .
it just came too sudden .. sigh , im left speechless .
and dicker's favourite quote - IGNTS .

FINALLY I MET AYLWIN GAN TODAY .
im so glad that i met him cos it has been
awhile since we met & caught up .
had subway for lunch , but poor boy just
had his braces done up so he didnt eat .

to think of it , it has been a year or so
since i knew him & he is definitely a great friend .
we had a small dispute & all but im glad its over .
he's someone whom you never ever want to lose as a friend,
he was always there when i ran into stupid problems,
he was the one who was always looking out for me .

i tot we have drifted quite far apart initially cos he's staying
at the barker boarding sch and all , so no msn for him .
and we dont really text each other ..
but today , he proved me wrong that we have drifted ..
it's just great to catch up with old pals ..
especially when you know , they still care (:

thank you , aylwin gan wei wen .
you'll forever be my bestest best 'sis' ,
someone whom i can always confide in & tell things to .

AND OH YEA I BUMPED INTO NATLIM & JOAN FONG .
joan was dressed as an indian cos its racial harmony ,
and i was making fun of nat , on how much she loves indians
but why aint she in an indian costume too ? hah , it was hilarious .

mum picked me up from town since she was in town too,
in fact she was in town cos she drove me down to meet ayl .
and dad was on leave today , so dad came to join mum for lunch.

& i got my juicy couture pencil case today .
im glad that i got it , cos its totally sexy > brown & pink
and i got myself a new bronze gold bag too , for school .

air tickets for bangkok & new york booked for end of year.
sigh , next week gonna be a busy school week ,
as well as tuition weeeeek .

2006-07-20T16:30:00.000-07:00

OMG , THURSDAYS' HOMEROOM ROUTE IS A KILLER.

let me illustrate to you in this simple manner ..

assembly>reading>elect hist>emaths>bio
level 1 > level 3 > level 1 > level 4 > level 1 .

recess>chinese>core geog>english
level 1 > level 2 > level 1 > level 3

its like taking part in the amazing race.
you explore everywhere , every level , my god .
~~just kill this bloody homeroom system~~

i feel so gay , i need to watch a movie tml (:
i need to get new heels soon tooooooo .
4 inches heeels from victoria secrets are like teh sex .
(im vertically challenged , thats why)

iltppgb <3

2006-07-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

something random that i miss.

birthday cake (:

2006-07-19T20:47:00.000-07:00

i am utterly disappointed in everything possible.

i wish that i had a part of you .
but that part of you will always be away .
i know you miss her .
its fine , i love her too cos she is my closefriend.
& i xoxoxoxoxo her alot alot alot .

impossibility .
the probality is like zero , reality bites .
slit my wrists like razor blades
imfuckingsicktirednumbofalltheseshitiloveyoubutitdoesntmatteranymore.doesit?
i love you but i'll never show it ,
for im forlon & forsaken ...

inevitable heartbreaking issues aside.
& on a happier note ...

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN , RAVINDER KAUR :D
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN , AILINKEA :D
&&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY , DADDY CHUA <333
I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU .

bdae dinner at pan pacific was great
with mum & dad <3

im doing well & fine in school .
i looked lethargic in class cos i watch too much dvds.
and im cutting down on it ALOT . ( by sleeping at 12mn)
so my dear teachers , fret not ,
im not losing my momentum & i will never .
i promise .

i hope i will perform in prelims.
bless me , oh god , please .

2006-07-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

ok seriously ,
i ~~fucking~~ hate the new homeroom system.
a standard classroom without tidbits is fine for me.
ok , just for 2 more months ...

nich ang is damn gay but he is damn nice.
hahaahahahahahhahhaa .
thank you , nickaye , for everything (:

ppgb isnt online today .
i bet dota dota dota dota again , gee .

ok anyway , there are slight improvements in my studies .
Heheheheheh . Getting back on track (:
somehow it just feels good to be back on track again , haha .

my mum is happpy abt the improvement .
and she never fails to encourage me more , hehe .
thank you mummy , i love love you <3

hoho , so this weekend she is going with me
to get the juicy couture bag :D hehehee
nah nah , we can have matching juicy bags sooon [:

ok anw i just ate a slice of banana choc cake
which my dad bought back from oriental hotel .
good shit , balls . hahaha .

2006-07-17T17:41:00.000-07:00

now i know of a certain kind soul
who has been trying to warn me of certain people.
but yet afraid that it wld worsen certain conflicts ..
as she tot that i wld not trust her & all ..

so she decided to just blog it down in her blog.
& i so happen to blog hop over there.

im thankful towards her in someway,
that she actually had such nice intentions ..
morever , im just a stranger to her ..

yes, more of such nice lovely people shld exist.
instead of those rojaked people around ..

thanks babe , i dont know whether you
will be reading this post , but still THANK YOU !

i've seen the ugly sides of certain people.
only two of them are nice people .
only two , sadly only two .
the rest aint exactly that nice ..

my deepest regret was to give up
on everything just for something .

my biggest mistake was so unmerciful.

it brought back the good old times ...

from coccolatte to mos to butterfact to dxo to risque to momo.
from starbucks to choc cake to everything.
from angry sms-es to quarrel to ignoring to everything .
from helping me in all the past parties to helping me at door.

it was you , who indirectly brought me close
to ailin , cos i had to bake your cake at ailins place.
thank you for re creating our friendship .

and that wierd taxi ride we had.
with that wierd taxi driver who talked non stop.

just thought of blogging all these down..
never know when i will have such chance & time anymore.

maybe i just miss you , miss talking to you like before ,
miss going out with you like before , miss calling you like before..

2006-07-16T18:05:00.000-07:00

HAPPPPPPY SWEEEEEET SIXTEEEEEEN
DEREK KHOOOOO !

i know what are your bdae wishes .

1 . gay more with leon .
2. gay more with jerrold.
3. gay more with jon ong.
4. gay more with joshua .

haha , but you should just stop gaying (:
& stop taking gay videos of you & jerrold .. haha!

2006-07-16T17:56:00.000-07:00

ailin,ravinder,derek's birthday party ytd at the pines
was pretty good .

it was a formal party ..
so we get to see everyone dressed in
blazers & gowns , HAHAH .

so i decided to get a
Jessica Mc Clinktok gown from avana.
since daniel yam gowns are quite plain
& so cliche and common .

haha it was a $459 gown dress
and my mum was nice to pick up the bill for me (:
samsam got a BCBG gown for ailin's party (:
haha , it was pretty pretty in pink .
& samsam look great in it , totally.

ok so anyway .
ailin,fulin,matt,dick,jh
accompanied me to avana to get the gown .

heh so after i made the payment ,
jh,dick,vict & i went over to taka
to pass some people some stuff , haha

ailin went hollywood secrets
to get her hair & make up done , samsam went too (:

hannah curled her hair at le salon
it was really beautiful la ,nah nah (: haha.

went back hannah's place.
her mum picked us up from wisma.

so yeah got ready at hannah's.
and her dad sent us over to winner's place
cos it was still pretty early .
waited for winner to get ready.
haha , winner is so cute la .
thats why i love winner , lol .

her sister drove us down to pines.
hannah met sean there , winner met anthony.
hahahaha and i waited for my dear steffi :D

steffi looked gorgeous , like always.
hahaha (: <3

joshua,nickchia,jiehuan,joel,eugene,mark, bryan, siangkoon,
soonleng,derek,jerrold,leontay, jon ong, nich ang,
alexchan,timchow were there early...

the rest of the barker boys came in slightly later..
ailin & ravi's friends came in slightly later too ...

so it all started arnd 8pm instead of 7pm.

& ravinder was uber hot & sexy .
so no doubt that she was leon's bitch,haha.
maryanne & kenny came late.
they are damn funny & cute la.

haha bestfriend joel went too :D hahahaah ,
and i called him when we were like a table apart ,
HAHAHA. and he thinks im gay .

and i saw pretty pretty fangzi there too(:
well , everyone just look fantabulous last night. (:
nicolette,gwen,tanya&royce were there too !

many people attended ,
so it was a pretty good one (:

connie looked so great in her white gown.
jerrold's blazer was like teh sex . haha .
winner loooked so cute in her bubble dress .

& isaac was so nice & cute ah .
he had a big ego attack . haha .

i brought this dinner bag which was too small
to put my wallet in... haha i know its gay but yeah..

the classic >

jon ong: ok i help you keep your wallet.
me : dont lose it or i will cry til i die.
jon ong: haha ok i wont .
me : good good .

> then dance floor started.. r&b , hahah!
so they actually expected us to dance in gowns..lol.

me : dont dance until my wallet drop ah.
jon ong : haha wont one la.

> 5 mins later.

jon ong : celine , can you pls do me a favour?
me : yes ?
jon ong : help me take care of my blazer,wallet&your own wallet.
me : HAHAHA YOU ARE SO GAY .

so in the end ,
i took care of the blazer,wallet & my own wallet.
so gay , omg . haha.

the whole pines party ended at 12mn.

helped derek , the birthday boy
to carry all those bags containing his gifts
since he is the birthday boy ! haha .

wanted to go for supper at newton.
but unfortunately..... so yeah we didnt ...

went back ailins place...
to pick up my stuff & mum picked me up at 3am..
and i slept til 2pm .
tsk , haha & when i woke up ...
i was smiling & grinning away .
HAHA .

thanks for making my day ytd <3
ykilu.

2006-07-14T23:40:00.000-07:00

met jon ong,joshua& jerrold
at heeren to collect my stuff .
& they ate up all my dark chocs .
evil little boys , haha .

then had sakae with
hannah & ravinder (:
fangzi came for a shortwhile ,
and as usual , ailin was late again .
ok , not surprising , lol , haha .

& jon ong, jerrold,joshua were still at
heeren searching for dereks gift ..

and before they left ..
jon ong made me came out of sakae twice..
and both times were just to say goodbye ..

HAHA YOU ARE SO BLOODY GAY . LOL.
& i thought that it was jerrold's idea . haha.

hannah left to meet sean for a dance fest at kallang.
ravinder left to meet leon.
so ailin & i went shopping arnd.
samsam joined us , hehe (:

back at ailins place now .
samsam & hannah are here tooo (:
HAHAHAHA .

yay stayover :D

2006-07-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

hannah koh en mei .

this is dedicated to you .

i love you forever & ever .

you will be my moon ,
always there for me at my darkest hours .

and i'll be your sunshine ,
to cheer you up & shine on you (:
and brighten up your day , always.

<3

2006-07-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

WHOA .

SO NOW YOU MAKE THIS PERSON
WHOM YOU BARELY KNOW FOR DAYS ..

TO BE THE MIDDLEPERSON ?

WHY ?
YOU ARE AFRAID TO SEE THE GUY WHOM
YOU ONCE LOVED ( OR MAYBE STIL LOVE)
& REJECTED YOU HUR ?

BUT NOT BAD ,
YOU GOT ANOTHER GUY'S NUMBER NOW.

HARD UP OR WHAT ?

ARE YOU HARD UP FOR GUYS ?
OR HARD UP FOR BARKER BOYS ?
OR BOTH ?

YOUR EX RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BESTIE
WAS JUST A RELATIONSHIP OF CONVENIENCE TO HIM .
NOTHING MORE THAN THAT .

& I THINK YOU SHLD STOP ASKING HIM OUT.
LIKE HELLO ?
LEAVE SOME DIGNITY FOR YOURSELF .

2006-07-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

just another wednesday.

tuition .
spa with mum at paragon .
late lunch at some jap restraunt.
bought durians .

yeah balls ,DURAINS ! :D
12 big durians :DDDD

im gonnnna eat at least six of them .
omg , durians are the best stuff on earth.

yes i swear its the best stuff ever ,
besides the creation of chocolate truffles .

hahah .
daryl chia is so gay ,
he is going to blog that
im very nice cos he is really obliged to do so , lol.

| daryl` deception point says:
being in saints rugby and winnning the finals
and me able to appear in the newspaper
is definately COOL SHIT!

HHAHAHA I SWEAR THAT
DARYL IS SO FUNNY & GAY .

ANYWAY .

HAPPY 3 MONTHS, AILIN ! :D
HAPPY 18 MONTHS , ADDIE ! :D

2006-07-11T21:57:00.000-07:00

OMG.

I RENTED DVDS :D

SO I SPENT MY WHOLE AFTERNOON/NIGHT
WATCHING THE HONGKONG SERIAL DRAMA DVDS I RENTED .
HAHA ITS SOME FORENSIC DETECTIVE SHOW.

OMG IT'S DAMN SUPER GOOOOOD .
THE STORYLINE IS UBER INTERERSTING.

SO I SPENT 8 HOURS WATCHING 9 EPISODES ,
OUT OF THE 30 EPISODES .

21 MORE EPISODES :D WHOO .

AND I CAN WATCH SCV ON MY LAPTOP :D
HAHAHAHHA , COOL SHIT .

& THANK GOD FOR ENGLISH SUBTITLES.
HAHAHAHAHAH .

OK BYEEEE :D
I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND .
I LOVE YOU TOO , HANNAH :D

2006-07-10T21:07:00.000-07:00

my day aft school was spent like this ,

tuition .
watched 'pimp my ride' on mtv.
steamboat dinner at grandma's place.

HANNAH , YOU ARE JUST LOVELYY
haha , i'll see you this friday !!
love <33

& yes i promise to love you forever&ever
and more than anything else.

i'll keep to my promise <3

james was like telling me on msn that
he is so proud of me cos
im gonna start studying . HAHAH .

jamesy , i have been studying .
just that , you didnt realized , lol.
haha but you are right ,
im studying much more than i did in june .

let's see for this week ,

fri & sat gonna be so exciting :D
gonna go over maryanne's place with hannah
then to ailin's place for her pre bdae party .

& yeapps ! stayoverrrrr <3

sat > ailin's ballroom party @ the pines.

AND AND AND ! >
ITALY WONNNNN THE WORLDCUP!! :D

but it was a draw in the 90mins game !
so nick , my prediction is better than
those whatever spore fengshui masters who
predicted that france will win ?

only one predicted that italy will win.
(maybe he supports italy? haha)

HAHAHA MOTHA CRAZY BALLS .

moral of story :
never trust s'pore fengshui masters
on your worldcup bets .

but its all over , wait for 2010 , balls.
4 years from now , and that makes me 20 yrs old.
haha being 20 sounds cool.

anyway as i was watching pimp my ride
on mtv in the late noon ,
i came across this worldcup encore thingy
which goes like this ,

YOU WAITED 30 DAYS TO KNOW WHO IS THE CHAMPION

(they show screenshot of the italian players)

THEY WAITED 24 YEARS TO BE THE CHAMPION

i find it pretty interesting ,lol.

and omg .
i ate super alot of durians at my grandma's place.
& i feel so duriany now ! LOL .

i think its the durian season now.
hahahah cos the durains were superb .

whoo .
& aunt bought this choc fondue thing
so we dipped the durian into it .

MY BLOODY GOD .
IT WAS BEYOND HEAVENLY .

like choc durian ? HAHA.
awesomeeeeee :D

ok byebye .
i need to brush my teeth now to get
rid of the durianyy smelll :)

i've fallen for my fairmaiden*

2006-07-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

world cup finals .

france v italy .
in 2.5 hours time .

glad that germany took the 3rd placing
instead of portugal .

oh yeah .
i finally bought another ipod nano
after i misplaced my prev nano in the bloody cab.

yeah i swear i will not be so
bloody absent minded again .

& oh i found the old 3rd generation 20gb ipod
in my old drawer while looking for cables
but i guess its abit cranky ?

so shld i repair it ?
or just dump it away since i have a new nano.

<3

Hannah: You are like the cutest thing on earth la (: haha
thanks for like everything yeah [: & you know that ,
no matter what happens , i will always love you , forever&ever.

Ailin: My dear silly ailin. i do understand how you feel yeah,
dont worry things will be fine!I'll always be here for you (:
your bdae in a week's time , cheer up :D love ya .

Nat Lim: Hahah , spastic girl. thanks for always allowing me
to flood your msn with my angry & emo chats . hahah .and never fail to
cheer me up with your spastic-ness. i love you for that , natnat.

Christabelle: 4 years have passed.. & we are stil bestfriends.
i thank god for you . i wouldnt know what to do without you. haha
after so many things , we are still so strong (: hah & to hell with
that mofo model wannabe k ? loveee

Joel: Bestfriend! our one year anniv just passed.. haha. you shld
stop getting tattoos&colouring them! haha. and yeah cheer up abt
whatever sad stuff has happened yeah!14 mnth coming up!swensons k!

Bryan: my dear slut , your forever so kinky . hahaha . but you are deeply missed.
i last seen you like on my bdae ? hahahha . & thanks for those earrings , i really love them , slut . haha .

2006-07-09T12:40:00.000-07:00

you are like some razorblade,
kissing both my wrists tonight.

things are starting to switch their pirorities.

so its like this now ,

1.bestfriends
2.studies
3.have fun
4.go over melb with ailin
5.go over states to look for hannah
6.house party
7.figure it out urself

n'aimez pas plus

2006-07-08T15:29:00.000-07:00

just got off the phone with hannah.
my gosh , my dear dear hannah .
your like so sweeeeet :D

yes tonight conference k (:
with ailinnnnn & all <3

I HATE YOU MOTHA FUCKERS .
I REGRET NOT LISTENING .
I REGRET NOT BELIEVING THE REST WHEN THEY
SAID YOU HUNG OUT WITH ME COS YOU WANTED TO
KNOW MORE GUYS & BE MORE POPULAR AMONG THEM .

ok byebyebyebyebye .
dont understand ? IM me online i will tel you

xoxoxo muchlove <3

2006-07-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

MOTHA FUCKERS

'NUFF SAID .
MSN ME ONLINE .

AILIN,NAT,HANNAH,JOJO,CHLOE,BESTFRIEND
I LOVE ALL OF YOU <3
THANKS FOR LISTENING .

CONFERENCE SOON <3

2006-07-06T23:43:00.000-07:00

it was great .
it was awesome .

top it off , with re cycle .
it was fantabulous yet hair -standing .
the after effect lasted for half an hour .

the pink rose & the name thingy <3

things that upset me .
things that disappoint me as well tho .

yet things that made me over the moon.
like joli joli garcon on your phone.

i feel fucking inferior somehow.
what's getting into me .

and yes , HAPPY BDAE IAINY (:

2006-07-06T02:27:00.000-07:00

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg

im ultra uber uber super super happpppppy now!
hehehehehee .

so happy that im sleeeeping now (:
im not even watching the match later on
haha im tooo happpy :D

<3 i love youuuuuuuuuu <3

2006-07-05T20:15:00.000-07:00

sam sam was so cute .
i miss you samsam <3

& yeah la , of cos my dear ailin
i miss you like nobody knows how much .

1 more week to your bdae party (: yay .

im getting 2 guess watches end of this month :DDD
cos there will be 2 limited editions watches coming up end july!

ok anybody wants to buy a matching dkny watch
with me , so i can have more watches !!
wellllll i haven gotten any watches this year
except for one fossil & one guess .

hoi , joli joli garcon .
quickly go get the white adidas jackett :D

& omg , the bloody nice ed hardy jacket !!
HAHA , hannah , $399 . we will get it sooon baby.
then we will have smth similar before you leave for states !

oh yeah , im getting a new ipod nano this friday :D
i prefer white & im gonna do engravings on the backk!
hehe so exciting . whoo .

i will take great care of my new ipod & not be so absent minded
and leave it in the cab again -_-

ok i just feeeel like shopppping again .

anyway i was over hyatt that day with my mum .
and she asked iasjd9023u9r23jdsjkl over to join us for dinner .
but iasjd9023u9r23jdsjkl was too shy . hahaha .

my mum thinks she is like .... so china doll .
HAHAHA .

2006-07-04T22:13:00.000-07:00

oops i missed out a few friends' bdae last week !
so ... ..
happy belated birthday , winner !
happy belated birthday , yu ting !

this week & next 2 weeks .
more birthdays coming up & they
are all so important , like super important , haha .

like ailinkea's, my bestfriend joel's & joli joli's .

haha tuitions are coming up too ,
my emaths tutor is the same as qinzhen's emaths tutor!
whoo whoo :D

we are studying biology tgt . ( i really hope it works out)
qinzhenny , i love you forever & ever & ever ! <3

2006-07-04T14:51:00.000-07:00

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

yes it is like the love of a devil .
but its time for a devotion to one .

& it kills me inside to see you like this .
i'll clean up my own wound ...

nothing more than the good old days are
that i used to miss , but not anymore now .

2006-07-03T22:15:00.000-07:00

my plan of staying at home apparently failed.

so my youth day went like this ..

ended up sun tanning at my condo pool with
hannah & nat in the morning .

& then we went for a sauna session .
it was like steam steam steam , teh sex .
we gonna meet up for the next sauna date !

mm thn met qinzhen at kap to study emaths .
which i only did the 2001 emaths paper 1 .
& thats with the help of ivan , tsk .

cabbed down town with qinzhen to meet
gayboy,emoboy & prettyboy .

everything was so draggy ....
mm went over cine .

saw ant chee,darius,harry,garett,santos,jordus!
& like this time , ant chee gave me a fright ...
he went , BOOOO CELINE .

but not that bad , my heart didnt stop for a second
like how he did when i , BOO ANT CHEE .

& yeah bumped into winner & natalina at wisma
it was so coincidental .
mostly everyone was in town today.

did nothing . sat outside somewhere for so long
and just , gazed at people walking past us .

everything appears to be so unmerciful .

2006-07-02T21:46:00.000-07:00

haha .

joli joli garcon de merveille ,
the cutest thing ever on earth!

HAHA .

no school tml , youth day .
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

but im staying at home .
haha , yeah amazing ? yes .

im staying at home .( but i can wake up late)
i dont wanna put my friday at risk .

friday is important , balls , lol .

nice pictures we took at cathay ! :D

yeah like after so many weeeks ,
i finally went to the new cathay cineplex for movie.
it's uber uber ultra nice & awesome .

so i watched SUPERMAN ytd <3
i still prefer garcon de merveille , lol.

go watch a movie there , you will enjoy it totally .
its just walking distance from plaza sing , heh .

pirates of the caribbean ( dead's man chest)
is gonna be out on 13th july !! (:

HAHA i gave ant chee a fright ytd
on the way to the new cathay from plaza sing.

the whole incident went like this ,

i saw him from afar and i ran in front of him
and went , BOOO! ANT CHEE !

& he told me his heart stopped beating for a second or so .
HAHAHAHAHHAHA .
im so sorry , anthony . lol .

you all should have seen anthony's facial expression
it was out of the world . haha .

& i bought this new black stilettos from URS .
it was so sexy and nice because .. hahah !

enjoy youth day , youths .

2006-07-02T01:22:00.000-07:00

i feel so rojakedddddd :(

je m'ennuie de vous et je me sens
comme un mille de milliers loin de .

vous savez, je t'aime tellement.

j'etais simplement triste que vous
ayez donne plus d'attention a elle

vous n'avez jamais su feutre de baise de I, soupir.

2006-06-30T18:00:00.000-07:00

late night conferences till dawn
was just awesome. haha .

yeah so i finallly talked to hannahhh ytd night
till this morning , like 530am ? haha .
were all in a conference with jh .

he was feeeeling ultra super uber emo .
so we conferenced & talk talk talk .

hannah & i just bursted out laughing whenever
someone mentions that jh walks his dogs everyday .
it was just so gay somehow , hahaha .

o levels chinese orals today .
hoho , i screwed it up like uber badly , balls .
like practically nothing sensible came out , lol.

thank god it was chinese .

my dear ailin called me like not too long ago .
but was doing some stuff so didnt talk for long .
but yay , im happy that she called me , yeaps .

sigh , i feel moody today somehow .
everything contributes to it i guess .
but i guess _____ contributes most .
> go over to my private blog
~~reservations~~

go listen > Unfaithful .

2006-06-30T17:54:00.000-07:00

Oceans apart
Day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice
On the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
I see you next to never
How can we stay forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted
All the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter and I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance, but in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance .

2006-06-29T21:58:00.000-07:00

i miss ailin like super alot :(

days that we talk talk talk talk abt everything
under the sun ...

days that i went over her place..

days that we shopped together ..

days that we made fun of wierd people together ..

days that we pour out those sorrows ..

now things took a better turn ,
for both you & me .

its good , im glad that he loves you so much (:
im so proud of you & him .

i just felt nostalgic , haha .
<3 ailin .

and of course , friends whom i spent time with during the holidays ..

just a few to name ..
samsam,hannah,nat,steffi,ravi,winner,maryanne

omg i miss everyone so much .

its only like 40 school days left to prelims
if i hadnt mistaken ...

& its only 60 school days approx to the O levels ..
how fast time passes by ..

zoom zoom , its prelims .
zoom zoom zoom , its the O levels ..
yet so much work left undone .

i wont rant abt how much i need
to get my work & all done
cos empty vessels makes the most noise
& actions speak louder than words ..

we shall see ..
whats the end product like ..

decisions are starting to change..

now ib seems to be stagnant ..
and i do wish to get into np business course ..

it might afterall have a better impact
than going into ib or jc ...

but the O levels results still do matters
for the admission from poly to uni ...

like it takes up 20 % of the citeria admission ..
and poly results 75 % .. and the last 5 % goes to poly cca ..

& i know i cant handle books anymore ..
i will just fail like shit ,
mum & dad will just send me over to states ..
which i dont really want that to happpen now..

and im pretty sure i will enjoy studying business alot ..
so maybe np wld be a better choice afterall ..

this is like some kind of huge dilemma .

hmmm im still happy today (:
im just waiting to skype now .

hahhah
joli joli garcon de mervielle just calllled me (:

im soooooo glad to receive your call
tho i sound pretty normal... lol .

i could have possibly kiss my phone ..
(that was just uber gay )

vous dites bonjour,
bas profond que je crie, je t'aime

anyway its o levels chinese orals
tml afternoon for me ..

& there is youth day celebration in school tml .

and hopefully there will be time for me
to meet hannah tml afternoon after my orals ..

go download & listen to ,
take me to your heart by MLTR (:

2006-06-28T20:59:00.000-07:00

school took a better turn ,
managed to catch up abit of emaths .

few days back , mr wong was sharing with us
his splendid overseas trip to vegas .

& that got me digging for old photos .
haha , old pictures that were captured when
i was over at vegas at the age of six to seven .

childhood were the best time of my life .
playing with toys & having people reading storybooks to me ,
there were practically nothing to worry about then .

but now ,
life has undergo such a drastic change .
i have to worry abt practically everything now .

& here comes the cliche line ,
life's a big bitch .

mmm i have been kept
pretty elated for the past few days .

in fact ,
its among the best days this year so far
that im feeling good & over the moon .

kudos to garcon de mervielle .

aimez-vous amour vous
joli joli garcon <3
vous m'avez rendu vraiment heureux de nos jours
merci et je vous aime vraiment ainsi ! :D

vous etes si beau simplement,
pres de la perfection (:

je serai toujours ici pour vous ,
garcon de merveille <3

je t'aime , vous m'aimez,
nous etes famille heureuse
avec une grande grande etreinte et
un baiser de moi a vous ...

pas vous dites que vous m'aimez aussi !

hahah ! :D
only you understand <3

2006-06-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPPPPY 13 MONTH ANNIVERSARY , BESTFRIEND !! :D

its been so long .
we have come so far .
we will be bestfriend forever .

<3

2006-06-27T14:58:00.000-07:00

She found roots of relish sweet ,
And honey wild , and manna dew ,
And sure in language strange she said -
' I love thee true'

yeah its no doubt that ,
you're a piece of wonder ,
true wonder - the ownage .

now every night seems to be a magical night ,
a million dollar fairytale ( whoa) .

somethings are better left unsaid .

it took me quite awhile to figure out
what to write in that letter last night .

it was close to perfection & lovely to me .
i hope it was that way to you too , haha .

its repulsive yet ceaselessly addictive.

2006-06-26T17:43:00.000-07:00

stucked on to skype again .
hooked on to late night calls again .

im beyond delirious .

the dreadful commencement of studying
for the Os starts today .

hannah's leaving for states soon .
sigh , people leaving & leaving & leaving .

tonight's match ,
brazil & ghana .

its so unbelievable,
and i dont want to let it go
something so beautiful
flowing down like a waterfall
i feel like you've always been ,
forever a part of me .

2006-06-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

/edited .

everything's turning awful .
yeah whatever that makes you happy.why the fuck am i paying so much
fucking attention to you .
i threw away the reciept order .

you are just so amazingly attractive
but... yeah , haha .

like ooooooh yeahhhhh .
haha , whatever .

but she's just beautiful , baby .

2006-06-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

ryan's back from tokyo disneyland (:
he bought me mickey & minnie mouse stuff :D
whoo & he's only like 6 years old ?
how lovely .

met ailin at taka <3
shop shop shop .
yeah just before school starts ,
we have to shop till we drop .

ailin & i met her lovely bf .
and he followed us to wisma .

we all met samsam there (:
hehehe , samsam <3

soonleng & samsam's bro , gabriel came
to topshop to look for us :D

hehehehe .
gabriel's soo super cute , lol .
he has a nice super sexy hot hairstyle.

so the happy six of us went sanur ,
some indonesian restraunt at taka for dinner.

and soonleng was so sweeet .
he surprised samsam with a ring :D
heheheeh it was realllly sweeet .

soonleng sent samsam & gab home .

cabbed back with ailin to her place .
& stayed there till 12 , thn dad picked me up .

fi fam sof fconused fover fou .
fwil fou bef fos fsweet & fblow fme foff fagain ?
fmayb fit faws frong romf fe fstart .
fou fshldnt bef myf feye fndacy .

2006-06-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

ailin & i only woke up at 2pm .
we ordered pizza hut :D

i thank god for fulin & ailin .
my lovely couple <3

my day was good :D

2006-06-23T04:09:00.000-07:00

town with ailin,samsam,sk,matt,fulin.

ok so anyway .
bought the adidas jacket which i searched
like 5 places - heeren,taka,wisma,rafflescity & citylink , for .

but only to find it at some limited edition
adidas boutique shop at far east .

supposedly , i settled down for the red adidas jacket.
then samsam said it was too striking :(

so i decided to go back to the shop & change it .

yeah yeah im fickle minded .

and i saw the cute couple -
ravinder & leontay at far east toooo :D
hahaha .

supposed to go zouk .
but > decided not to in the end .
tireddddd & nobody's going .

chilled out at free bananas , wisma .
watched the czech worldcup match .

& yada yada yada .

crashed over ailin's place again (:

talked to james .
mmmm i hope things wld be better .

ok ailin & i just ordered macs .
i love this silly woman so much .

& i miss hannah koh en mei !! :(

2006-06-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

leon's party , smoove @ club momo last night
was the sex , hahhaha .

it's one of the better parties this june holidays .

well done , leon & ravinder (:
good crowd , good music & great dancefloor .

everyone said it was good stuff .

nat,ailin,yvonne,sarah & i took a maxi club
from one fullerton down to club momo .

kenny,maryanne,jason,shaunlim,steffi,daniel,ant,jerrold,
derek,jon ong,darren&friends,timchow,mingyu,roytong,
althea,nichang,alexchan,nich teo,iain,sean,wayne,isaac,mike and all were there .

so there were many familiar faces .
mmm yeah .

but hannahhh didnt go cos sean didnt go :(
her brother went tho , heh .

hmm but kinda enjoyed ytd's party .

im going crazy , hehehe .
heh , anyway tried flaming lamborghni last night .
dude , it's really flaming down ur throat . haha .

left momo at 4am .
crashed over ailin's place .

all of us only slept at 7am
& only woke up at 1pm
& then continued to sleeep till 430pm .

haha it was a fun stayover :D

ok anyway .
ailin cooked pasta for me again ,
yeah it was fantastic as usual :D

whoooo hoooo .
waited for mummy to pick me up at 6pm .

& mm we went for a simple belated fathers day dinner
at holland village nydc .

yeah nydc :D

& home sweet home <3

2006-06-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

i love my bestfriend , joel .

i miss hannah koh en mei .

i have very bad sore throat .

smoove@clubmomo tonight .

james is back in spore .

its the last week of holidays .

i bought alot of happy house stuff recently .

i have one person on my hatelist now, tsk .

i learnt that some people are just so disgusting .

i shop quite often at forever 21 lately .

i miss eating nydc .

i love my daddy .

i want to bake a cake again .

i have a private blog where i talk abt everything there . haha .

2006-06-19T02:02:00.000-07:00

ok .

so qinzhen stayed over my place ytd night .
we had our own little fun in my little orange room
tilll late like 3 am ? mmm yeah .

she woke up early for church
while i continued sleeeeeping till its time for tuition .

tuition ended at 4pm .
my tuition teacher reminded me that
prelims is in 2.5 months time & O lvls is in 3.5 months time .

whoa . that struck me alot , mmm .

so anyway went over ailin's after tuition .
mum drove me there .

chilled out at ailins for awhile
then we walked over to novena sqr to meet her friend.

and i got chocz chocolate marshmellows
from there , heh yeah for people .

then we cabbed down to zouk at 6
for the briefing & duty allocations .

yeahh so ailin & i were the dooor bitches tonight .
but its not really the case tho .
cos we ended up marking people's name
on the guestlist & vip list .

most of the youthempire people were there.
fulin came down too with a gift for ailin , heh .

jerrold,leonsee,roy,christian,harry,leontay,ravinder,sean,timchow,
shaunlim,jonong,peggy,darryl,oeiji,mike,kenny& alot more others
turned up for this zouk party , yeah man .

but my samsam was not there :(
i miss samsam.

the total number of people who turned up
was the sex man , haha .

and yeah the usual happened at the dance floor .
the whole group of barker boys went up to the podium
and started grinding one another .

hard gays . hahah .

mum picked me up early from zouk cos
im having class at 730am .

so which means im left with only
4 hours to sleeeep .

holy shit .

2006-06-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

sweet sixteen was awesome .

14th June .

celebrated it over at ivan's
with joel,joshua,aylwin,eugene chng,eugene lam,aylwin,caine,jerry,matthew,qinzhen,rachel,bryan,xavier & all .

we had bbq .
we had carrot cake . ( the fake bdae cake , lol)
we had macadamia cake from secret recipe .
we played guess the number game .

&& oh, eugene chng & my very nice bestfriend joel
smashed like part of the cake on my face .

yeah the pict is like superrrr unglam & bad .
so mmm , not posting up . haha .

yeappps > i love both qinzhennnn & ivan <333

15th June .

mummy & daddy brought me out for thai lunch .
and they went off to meet my aunt & all for shoppping .

then i met hannnah at taka (:
& finally i did my shopppping :D

bought tops from zara & forever 21 .
bought this guess wallet tooo (:
& yeahhhhh other small small stuff . heh .

accompanied hannah to do her naval piercing
it was sooo freaking scarrrrry :(
it was really traumatising .

so mmmmmm hannah & i
met nat,sean,wayne at cityhall
we supposed to have steamboat dinnner
but decided not to & have nydc for dinner instead ! (:

hehehee .
yeapppps so we went down to heeren's nydc.

ravinder,ailin,samsam,leon,jon ong,derek,jerrold,shaun & jason
all came down too , heh .

after dinner , we went over ailin's place.
we stayed inside the theatre room
without any movie playing , lol .

so we ended up playing mahjong .
hahaha . so gay but yeah .

ailin,ravi,leon,samsam went to cook porridge for supper
samsam is crazyyyyy !!
she puts chilli into the porridge :(

& it became spicy mushroom abalone porridge .
it was soooooooo spicyyyyyyyy .

& so jon ong finished the other half of the
spicy porridge . hahaha .

it tasted awfully spicyyyy :(

but its ok , i still love my samsam <33

> as usual .
leon , derek , jerrold & jon ong
started all their gaying around there , lol .

and derek,jerrold& jon ong made me a ,
HAPPY BDAE , CELINE (:
out from the mahjong tiles .

i will post the pictures of the wordings
up sooooon (: its really nice.

heh , thanks dudes yeah <3

& yeah ailin,ravi,hannah& samsam !
thanks so much for yesterday (:

i loveeee you allll sooooo muchhh (:

2006-06-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

hannah's house party on sunday night
> Risque@Kings .

valentina the pretty was there .
her friend was with her (:

my new friend at hannah's party > steffi .
hahaha she's like damn funny & nice.

it was a scandalous party .
tsktsk , hahaha .

so many scandals .
& oh yes , that whore ah , tsktsktsk .

i dont like her faceeeeee .
HAHAHA .

last night was
ravinder ,ailin & maryanne's party
> OneNightStand@DXO .

it was quite a good party .
except that i got a little wasted .

danced with samsam,nat,winner,steffi,mary&ravi (:
addie& audrey were there tooooo , heh .
addie was like how drunk . lol .

jon ong,harry,jeric,jerrold,shaun,jason,anthony&mike
were like all gaying on the dance floor .

hahahah typical gay chains .

left dxo at arnd 4am .
crashed ailin's place .

maryanne,kenny,ravinder,leon,winner,steffi,jason,fulin
crashed over ailin's too .

we were waiting for our turn to shower
so we only slept at like 6am .

blahblahblah .

mum picked me up from ailin's at 8pm .
and yeah im back home .

that i love you more than you'll ever know
& a part of me died when i let you go .

2006-06-10T23:54:00.000-07:00

i met joel , qinzhen & ivan again :DDD
im soooooooo happpppy (:

we went over to ivan's
&amp;amp; continued our monopoly & bridge game .

we had beef fried rice for lunch !! (:
& fresh coconut ? > gay ?

we wanted to watch i not stupid 2 on dvd
but we decided to keep it for 14th june (:

hmmm so ivan was the monopoly king today !
hahaha .

we cabbed down town .
went ps & walked around and had pasta mania !

it was just fun .
spending time with them .

& i swear that my bestfriend , joel ang
is the cutest thing on earthhh :D

thn went over mdm wongs with matt & fulin
but i stayed outside & went home early .

mmmm yeah .

collected tickets for other parties
& just stayed outside and talked with jane,timhan & all .

the first time im feeling sick of this shit .
yeah someone dashed my mooood to club today , oh well .

ah well .
ailin cameee :D
but we only talked for a shortwhile :(
she has her hot boyfriend to attend to , lol .

kenneth came toooo ! (:
but when he reached , i was about to leave .

lester & samuel were there !
haha was surprised to see them .

mum picked me up .
& we went home .

is it gonna be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster ?

so what if i miss you .
so what if i like you .

its ending up in nothing .